Apr 29

Two days ago I experimented with Caffeine.

In the morning I grabbed a Redbull… why? Because I’m one of those freaky time weirdos out there that actually enjoy the flavor of the toxic internal organ staining stuff. During the 40 minute car ride to work, I downed the elixir and ate some left over Chex mix found in my garbage pail of a car.

Sexy.

By the time I got to work, I decided the choices I made in the morning were smart. I was buzzing… whirling like a newly oiled tin man. E-mails- check! Assignments- check! You got a question, dear student?-check! Clean desk- check! Check! Check! Check! I could almost hear the ding of a bell in my head every time I successfully accomplished a task at hand.

It was magic, until I realized that this energy- though it felt natural and easy- was completely fabricated by the consumption of massive amounts of sugar and whatever other voodoo spells they put in that tiny blue and silver can. Not wanting to loose my high- I zipped to the coffee kiosk to get my daily cup of coffee and Latina attitude from the Barista. I normally get a medium- but since I was already jacked up on caffeine, “A large, please…” blurted from my lips. What? Why? How?

Sitting at the reference desk, I felt a nervous energy start to vibrate through out my limbs. The coffee put me over the edge… but I continued to answer questions and work though the daily tasks at a heightened speed. Which continued to increase… and increase… and increase… until, I could literally feel my heart pulsating though my left bosom. When there was wasn’t anything to type, I watched, helplessly as my fingers ghost typed on the keyboard. A student would arrive at the desk, lazily garbling a question out for me to answer, which I would reply with a rapid,

“Yes! Okay! Let’s do it! Come on! Follow me, the book is this way!” Charging onward into the stacks while they followed me with wide eyed mystery.

When lunch rolled around, I had already planned out the specific CDs I would lend to my dad, figured out an efficient path to his house so I could get gas on the way- and constructed what I would steal from his fridge using a visual picture of what was available from my last visit . When I arrived, I made my sandwich, and tried to hide the fevered pitch of my caffeine high from his mellow demeanor. My father must have not picked up on this, because he automatically offered me a Coca-Cola.

I was at a crossroads… I didn’t know if my body could handle the extra dosage of this wonder drug… but then again, I knew I was heading for a head on collision with the post 4pm work malaise.

“Alright… Let’s do this.” I muttered taking the gleaming red can from my dad’s finger tips. My hands quivered as they carefully popped the tab.

Sitting back at work, this time in my office, I was alone with my high. I swerved back and forth in my chair- occasionally leaning back in the seat to test the limits to how far the chair could stretch. Suddenly I felt it in my stomach… it was almost as if the organ was groaning,

“ohhhhh what did you DO TO ME?!?!”

“I dunno…” I groaned back, and slumped low in my seat. In a matter of hours, I had gone from a wunderkind to a lump of turd-crap wasting away in the corner, barely enough energy to knock off the flies. No longer ghost typing, I looked at my withered phalanges as they lay dormant at the edge of my keyboard, and wondered aloud, “What happened to me.”

My boss peaked into my office, took one look at me, and said, “Nnekay, is it time to go home?”

“yes…” poured like thick liquid out of my mouth, “it’s time to go home.” 

Apr 28

Blog.

Narcissism.

Expression.

Meta.

Opinion.

Bias.

Thought.

News.

Informative.

Silly.

Funny.

Hack.

Fresh.

Singular.

Multitude.

Ridiculous.

Important.

Self Important.

Apr 22

I was driving to work a couple days ago, and saw two gentlemen who were around my age casually walking down the street. One of them was finishing up a lovely bottle of something, then promptly dropped it on the ground. I felt a giant pit form in the depths of my belly, “HOW COULD HE?!?!?!?” I thought to myself as the heat of anger rose around my cheeks. Images of me pulling over, picking up the bottle and launching at his head flashed through my mind, but of course, I kept driving.

Why do people still litter?

More so… why am I so angered by litterbugs?

Well I can only say that litterbugs don’t really give a crap about the Earth, but apparently I do? I like to think that I do, but I leave the water running when I brush my teeth… I like to flush the toilet all the time, because I think “Let Yellow Mellow” is gross. I have a bad habit of leaving lights on, and while I have a strict no litter policy- I’m not always one to wait for a recycling bin.

I wish I knew how to get people to stop littering… but I guess I should turn the table and look at what other things I could do to leave less of a carbon foot print. I don’t want to live in a junky trashy planet… and I don’t want my future cyber relatives to live in one either.

Apr 21

There are so many movies about the loverlorn dude pining away for his dream girl. She’s usually some stone cold bitch, who could give a damn about his hand crafted mix tape/cd he carefully weaved together in the depths of the night. Needless to say this character is highly sympathetic to the audience, just ask Michael Cera, he’s made millions portraying this prototype in pretty much every movie he’s ever been in. How could this Jerk-Woman not appreciate the hidden gem of a man that has bared his soul just to get her attention?! Lot’s of dudes in real life model themselves off of this cinema hero, purposefully going after out of their league women, to play out their hidden fantasies of unappreciated love.

But whatever…

I don’t really give a crap about their half-asses masochistic practices. What I do care about is the flip switch of the issue: The Lovelorn Lady.

She’s not sympathetic, just pathetic- in fact to be a single lady character in a movie or television show usually means that something is wrong with you. I can easily divide these oh so attractive personality traits into four groups:

Weird (read: ugly or quirky)

A-Sexual

Power Bitch

Crazy

It’s that simple… think about it.

             … need help? Here’s some examples:

Weird: Ever wonder why Phoebe never had a romantic subplot on Friends? Oh yea… she was too busy singing about “Smelly Cat.”

A-Sexual: Just about every TV show with a cheery white lady lead has a sassy black friend who comments on the leads sexual exploits, but magically never has her own. Wanda Sykes in The New Adventures of Old Christine, is a current example.

Power Bitch: She’s just too busy to focus on men- which somehow also means she has to be an asshole to the rest of the world. Hello, Julia Stiles in 10 Things I Hate About You.

Crazy: This is the one that urks me, essentially she’s the female counterpart to Mr. Saddy McLoveMe from earlier- yet when she follows, makes mix tapes, and scribbles love notes it’s not cute and romantic- but instead psychotic. Take that iconic scene in Say Anything- instead of John Cusack standing there, it’s a chick blasting Peter Gabriel from a giant boombox, in the middle of the night… outside some dude’s window. Right? It’s freaky, all you gotta do is add a little streaked mascara and you got yourself some scary horror show shit.

The ONLY way a lady can pull of lovelorn in the movies is to basically HIDE from her crush, painfully yearning for him to notice her, but dramatically fleeing the scene whenever presented the chance at interaction. Then magically Senior Beefy discovers her and kicks down all obstacles to get to know this weenie heroine. Molly Ringwald pulls this off quite nicely in Sixteen Candles, not to mention almost all female Disney Channel leads.

I had one 8 month relationship during my high school years, meaning the other 40 months I was extremely single. I was too shy and self conscious to be a power bitch, my diaries would prove that I was far from a-sexual, and while I was unusual, I wouldn’t categorize myself as a weirdo. Lastly, I did not want to be thought of as crazy, I had seen enough teen movies to know that if you were patient and hid yourself from your crush, he would eventually ask you to the prom, and the two of you would fall in love while slow dancing to Kiss From A Rose by Seal.

After being ditched by my two gay dates at the Senior Prom, it finally dawned on me that this tactic was not working. For one of the first times in my teenage years I felt hot and pretty confidant. So, I tossed my hair, hiked up my boobs, and asked my crush to dance. He said yes, we danced, and it was done. No, we didn’t fall in love, and no, it wasn’t romagical, but it felt good to know that I didn’t have to hide from what I wanted. I wasn’t crazy, a-sexual, weird, or power bitchy- just a girl who happened to be single and wanted to dance.

Can we please see more of this in the movies?

Apr 20

According to movies, the future will either be a shiny mechanical wonderland, filled with whizzing robots, and hovering do-dads or a shit colored wasteland, populated with mongoloids dressed in leather. Both are kinda cool, but honestly, I think the future will be neither of those.

I’m not really a glass is half empty or half full type of girl- I guess I’m more of a “yea that glass has some stuff in it,” type of personality. Meaning, I don’t really think we’ll blow ourselves up in a giant apocalypse, but I don’t see us living in a crazy awesome Jetson type of future either. How did I come to this conclusion?

Automatic Toilets.

New things are constantly being invented on a day-to-day basis, especially with the down turn of the economy, more regular types are becoming “Inventors” to tide the time till their next interview. This means that yes, in the future there will probably be a bunch of useless crazy hi-tech whatcha-ma-dos- to help us do dumb things that don’t normally take that much energy to do.

Let’s discuss automatic toilets- flushing a toilet is not strenuous activity, I think it probably takes more effort to turn a door knob. Also, If you’re afraid of germs… let me remind you… ahem…you just wiped your ass, not to mention there is a sink with soap about 2.5 seconds away from your stall. See…unnecessary, but cool in that crazy everything is automatic Utopian future way. Now, this makes it seem like we’re progressing towards Shiny RobotLandia, but wrong… automatic toilets are faulty. Sometimes they don’t flush, forcing you to try and find that weirdly hidden button flusher, defeating the purpose of the invention or they flush while you are still using the damn thing, creating a vortex under your posterior, which is… well… unpleasant to say the least.

“Oh Nnekay, things are improved upon over time…” you may think to yourself, but automatic toilets have been around for AT MINIMUM 10 years, why are they still faulty?!?!?!

Because, if it’s mechanical… it will eventually break down. Computers get viruses, timing belts snap, wires break, metal rust. Basically, if it’s man-made it will some day need some tinkering to get it going again. This is the main reason, I’m not afraid of being forever trapped in the Matrix or looking for John Conner to be my savior. A war with machines is a stupid idea, because the machines will fall apart, start to move slower, or get the red ring of death, and we will win by default.

In conclusion, the future will probably be lame in the sense that yea- we’ll have gadgets and stuff- but they’ll break down and be annoying… kinda like now.

Apr 15

Justin Bieber makes me feel old. I don’t understand how this tiny baby chipmunk of a boy is so popular with ladies- well… little ladies. Sometimes I question if he’s even a boy at all- he’s just THAT lady like…

I guess the 27 year olds in the 90s didn’t understand JTT, and the 27 year olds in the 80s probably didn’t get the New Kids on the Block or New Edition… and pretty sure the 27 year old in the 70s didn’t understand Micheal Jackson or David Cassidy…

What is up with the history of teen boy obsession? I guess just teens in general- the focus seems to be on the creepy fascination with teen girls, but there’s one on teen boys too- here’s the creepier thought: Teeny Bopper Boys either look or sound like girls. It’s almost like the appeal of the Castrati in Italy… Lop the balls off of some poor dude- so he can forever have a delicate high pitched voice like a flower… and the ladies LOVED it, I don’t get it… but they probably didn’t live much longer after 27 in those days…

Apr 12

There is this new McDonald’s Commercial hawking cheap-o coffee, if I weren’t so lazy, I’d link it. But I am… so instead I’ll half ass describe it. This cinematic genius features some crusty youngish professional type- flopping around his life before he gets his coffee. In a nutshell he’s being a complete bitch to everyone.

“Hey Bob, how’s it going?”

“Don’t talk to me.”

“Good Morning!”

“Don’t talk to me.”

The commercial frustrates me- because this gross dude is being an ass to undeserving people… until he gets his coffee. After one sip of McDonald’s miracle elixir- he’s Mr. Chipper Fun Time McGee. As an avid coffee consumer, I feel that it gives us coffee people a bad wrap- and something those smug tea drinkers can use against us. In the morning before my caffeinated cup- I usually don’t feel cranky… I feel dull… headache-y… and perhaps a little mentally slow- I’m never aggro… well at least this is what I thought until today.

I knew something was a little off when I started pulling dusty pennies from the bottom of the black hole that is my purse. It was a desperate act, but I reasoned that pennies are money and coffee is good. Really good…. like seriously… really really really… “I need it” good. With a pocket hanging heavy and low with change, I jingled my way to the kiosk. Of course there was only one person behind the kiosk, and she was new… she wasn’t the regular girl, who usually gives me major Latina attitude. New girl was lost… desperately looking at her cheat sheet on how to make whatever the three waiting ladies to the left wanted. Itching for my caffeine, I tried to calm myself, as the lost new girl blew foam all over the counter. As I listened to the three ladies talk about the Morning Show, I felt a slow rage build up from my gut. “Ya’ll are so fancy… waiting for your fancy coffee…” I muttered. I heard a girl giggle, and I shot her a death ray stare- prompting her to stop mid laugh and look down. I stuck my hand in my pocket and began to clench and unclench tiny piles of pennies which maneuvered around my fingers like stones. When it was my time, I dragged out the change like a little kid, grumbled, “one cup,” and walked away.

After three sips of My Precious, I realized that the McDonald’s commercial was based in fact.

Apr 11

I’ve tried and failed at writing numerous blogs recently- and have decided that I need to consistently post things to not loose readership.

Hi Mom!

So to combat my writer’s block, on days in which I feel at a loss for interesting things to talk about- I’m going to post random thoughts that pop into my head… that are longer than 140 characters- twitter can deal with the really dumb mind numbing thoughts of mine. If you want to follow- that would be rad… I promise to keep is sophisticated by talking about poop and stuff-

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Moving on… random thought for this fabulously rainy day of April 11th, 2010: Cleaning a very messy room can lead to giant hair balls- which makes me wonder how many hairs fall out of my head each day… and why do I still have so much?!?! I could probably knit a sweater. Also- why is the thought of wearing a sweater made out of hair so disgusting? We wear jackets and sweaters out of animal hair- yes… we call it FUR, but ‘cmon… it’s the same damn thing… I remember going to a craft fair a long time ago with my dad, it was one of those folksy old time-y ones, where old fat white dudes with giant bushy beards wear suspenders and whittle shit. Anywho- there was this one old woman… with a long grey braid and a hoopla skirt knitting an angora sweater directly off of this lump of a rabbit. The bunny didn’t seem to mind, but the image of this rabbit being knitted off-has seared in my brain so deeply, that whenever I even hear Angora, I see this image- and I don’t like it.

I’m not about to go all nude-y PETA style- but I’m not about to get ten times more grossed out if someone decided to wear a human hair vest.