Nov 20

I could never have a job that was placed within a cubicle.

I guess when compared to other careers, I would rather sit in a cubicle than say shovel shit, but you know… since I’m not presented with these said options… no need in thinking about them. To me, a cubicle equals torture- why? Because you’re stuck in a gray colored cube, next to other gray colored cubes with another boring person placed in each one.

It’s like a terrible bee hive…where instead of honey, boring marketing tactics are produced… I honestly don’t know what goes on in offices. Well I sorta do, I had the lovely experience of working in one for a half a second. Every waking minute I spent in my loaned cube (as the industry folks like to call it) I wanted to pull my eyeballs out and use them as stress balls. Then again, I was archiving data for a prominent banking company. I reached an all time low, when the highlight of my day was finding an internal memo explaining the new fangled notion of a “bank with no tellers” or what we future people call, ATM machines.

Needless to say I ran screaming from that job.

Currently, I work in several libraries, one of which has a backroom.  I usually am able to hide from the crazies and  pretend that I’m actually doing work- when in all honesty, I’m kind of plopping around on the Internet. This backroom harks memories of that god awful bank job, because within this dark sanctuary there are five little semi-cubicles, each one containing a computer. Some are reserved for full time employees- who have tried to make them more livable, a picture of a wife here, note about retirement there, but they all virtually look the same- with the exception of one- which resembles a hazardous dumping area. There are two cubicles which are up for grab- one of which the part time staff are constantly jockeying over. As one might have guessed, it’s the furthest from the door and where the boss sits. The majority of the time I find myself rather happy to enjoy a moment of silence in the office- I usually get bored and incredibly A.D.D. My focus begins to flip flop, and I’m stuck with the realization that I’m a boring unimaginative person. This then leads to the crushing discovery that I am also unmotivated… so unmotivated that I sometimes have a hard time procrastinating- which is ridiculous. If I had to spend all 8 hours within a cubicle, I probably wouldn’t get anything done, just sit staring at a blank screen, silently complaining about how boring my job is and how nasty that burrito was at lunch.

Earlier today, I was sitting staring into nothingness, when I got bumped from the golden part-time cubicle. Another part-timer gave me some bullshit reason about needing to use this one specific computer, so I moved to the other more exposed location, because I’m nice person.

I sat and glared at this staff member for a while, then resumed looking into the abyss. Just as I started to contemplate the gross nature of my noontime burrito, I was interrupted by peeps. Yes… the tiny little squeaky noise that emits from baby birds. My hatred of birds runs deep, yet even more so I hate baby birds… they look like boogers, little angry boogers. Now it all changes once they sprout some fluffy feathers, becoming the only stage of bird I can handle and actually enjoy looking at.

After sitting confused for a little bit,  it dawned on me that I was in fact situated under a skylight. Since birds are incredibly intellectual beings, this particular seagull had the genius idea of nesting on top of it. As the peeping grew louder my stare into nothingness turned into a panicked thought… seagulls are big and this building is old. Seagulls have never seemed particularly graceful, so it seemed almost likely that when mama came crashing down to her nest, I might be greeted with a flailing bird in my lap along with her hungry angry booger babies trapped and peeping in my hair.

I was horrified.

The thought of raining birds made me leap from my seat and uncontrollably pace around the room. Obviously, it would have to be a seven ton seagull to even crack the plexi- glass skylight, but just the thought of a super-sized giant seagull caused me to freak out even more. I shot my co worker a dirty look as he smugly typed away at the keys happy and safe in the corner of the break room…Dipshit. I picked up some magazines and begrudgedly marched out to the main floor.  As I began to actually do work regarding my job- it dawned on me that those damn seagulls had somehow managed to motivate my work ethic and invigorate my imagination.

“Nasty-ass boogery bastards” I thought to myself as I placed a magazine on the rack.

Nov 13

We last left out heroine encased in a boozy throng of co-eds on a sloppy march to the last and final club, The City- supposedly the biggest club in Cancun. Wavering from one side of the sidewalk to the other, I noticed that a lot of the locals where shouting things at this caravan of tourist, some of these things were directed soley towards me, “SIIISTAAAAHH! SIIISSSSTAH!” Apparently, Mexicans believe black girls like being called, “sistah”… I shrugged this off and continued my jolly march down the street.

Right as I felt that I could withstand a steady balance, a behemoth of a man grabbed my flim-flam of an arm and said in a thick Australian accent “Aw’right! ‘Ere we go! You’re with me now!”

He obviously was wasted- as was I, or I would have acted a tad more coy- rather than giggling and tromping right along with this 7 ft tall Kangaroo. As the crowd filtered into the “club” I noticed that this was not the humongous throbbing warehouse- but instead a beach side cabana filled with people and loud music. To me- this was insanely better. I asked our Handler (the poor sack who’s job it was to wrangle the boozers at the end of the night) where the pictured club was. He told that it was open, and pointed to the door, but warned me that there wasn’t anybody in there. Half way through my semi slurred convo with the Handler- I was pulled by the Aussie onto the sand covered dance floor.

His moves were nothing short of painful.

I’m a nice girl. I go to clubs and if you’re not going to grind on me- I will probably dance with you. That being said- I have seen pretty much the worst- and this guy… this incredibly tall, dark, and handsome man (with and accent), managed to pull some of THE WORST dance moves I have ever witnessed a serious human being attempt.

Slow back jerks that mimicked a rooster’s gait, mesmerizing butts swirls that resulted in a low squat, fist on top of fist and swung as if stirring a giant pot of Australian chili. I couldn’t handle it. I tried, but I just couldn’t dance with this guy and NOT bust up laughing. I excused myself- got another drink and found Heather.

We danced everywhere: on stage with the British guys, in the corner with the Saint Louis Ladies, in a conga line waving multi colored balloons. It was what I expected Cancun to be- and because of this I felt an overwhelming sense of unabandon. This must be the feeling most Co-eds gets before enrolling in a wet t-shirt contest. 

While Heather and I noodled our balloons and arms around in the middle of the dance floor, I felt a slight tap. I turned around noticed a short Mexican dude staring back at me. I said a boozy, “Hiii…” and continued to wave my arms around like an idiot.

“You are very pretty, and I bet you have a very nice body under that dress.” He said. If I wasn’t drunk, if I wasn’t in Cancun, if I had any morsel of sense left in my four days of consistently intoxicated mind, I would have punched him. But alas, no… I laughed, said thank you, and continued to jump, woot, and waggle my arms in the air. “Would you want to compete in the bikini contest.”

“NO!” HA! So I did have some sense left.

“Come on, I bet you would win, you’ve got one of the best bodies here at the club, and we’re hand picking the contestants…”

“No…”

“Are you sure, I bet you would win…”

“Heather…” I turned to face my roommate, she shrugged and smiled. At this point I was using her as my moral test- I usually am the wilder of the two and if she was wasn’t giving me stares of horror… maybe this wasn’t so bad. “I don’t have a bathing suit, and I’m not going out there naked…”

“We are supplying new bathing suits for the contestants, oh and the prize is 1500 US dollars, and a bottle of Tequila.”

“I’m in.”

The little man quickly grabbed my hand and flew towards the heavily guarded back of the club. Each guard looked at him, then eyed me to which he responded with a quick, “bikini contest,” which gave us immediate access though the thousands of doors we must have passed through. Finally, I was deposited into a female bathroom and was completely surrounded by giant half naked fake boobie ladies.

I felt short.

I was offered a Tequila shot and happily took it. I was pointed in the direction of the bikinis- I picked a bright neon yellow suit, went into a stall, and changed. The top- was little, but it managed to cover my nips. The bottoms on the other hand… it was if someone tried to make a thong out of full bottoms and got lazy halfway there. I noticed some of the other “ladies” tucked the remainder of their bottoms into their butts to create a thong. Not wanting to showcase all of my goods…I struggled in the mirror for quiet some time. I pulled the panties up to cover my crack and my cheeks flopped out… I pulled the panties down to cover my cheeks and my cracked decided to say, “hello” to the world. After finally deciding to showcase my crack, I was handed baby oil.

Baby Oil.

I oiled down- I had gotten this far and wasn’t about to be the only matte finish, when everyone else was glossy.

The contest officials gathered us in a semi circle of hoochies and began to address the rules to us. Someone slapped a number six on my thigh, and we lined up in number order. We were instructed to then old hands (which were greasy) and then proceeded to march in a weird bikini lady parade through the club and behind the stage.

Have you ever had a moment in your life when you wondered to yourself, “How the hell did I get here?!” Well, marching through a club in a neon yellow bathing suit while holding hands with two giant shiny fake tanned “ladies”- brought me to that moment.

Standing backstage I made friends with the lady in front of me who was 36 and from New Jersey. She didn’t look like she was 36, but she kept saying it- which made her seem VERY 36. “I’m 36! I’m can’t believe I’m doing this. I’m 36!”

Well, I’m 25 and I can’t believe I’m doing this. I didn’t say that though… figured it would have been salt in the wound.

We each got 5 seconds to shake it on stage alone. I did. I can’t lie, it was fun. Don’t get me wrong, I’m as RAH-RAH Woman power as you can get- but in no way did I feel objectified. I mean, I was… I was wiggling around on stage for a bunch of horny dudes…. but man… the wiggle has power. The crowd erupted , and in the midst of it all was Mr. Outback- arms raised and screaming, “Oiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!”

After evrybody had managed to complete their fair share of jiggles (some raunchier than others), we lined up and were voted by roar of the crowd. Two bitches were eliminated. Then the voting happened again…one more skank was gone to the wind. There I was, still on stage in the final four. Knowing I had gotten the lowest vote in the previous scream fiesta- I knew I was about to get the boot. Something comes over you when you’re on stage, half naked, and wasted… it was almost as if my inner skanky bitch decided to visit for a short period of time. After I got my lack luster rouse of applause from the audience…I stood back and started to temporaily seeth because some other girl (with bald looking white girl cornrows) was beating me in applause. Skanky bitchy Nnekay slowly rose from my inner core travelling with increased speed until it reached the very tips of my fingers causing both middle fingers to spring to life. It took my brain a half a second to realize that, “yup, Nnekay…. you’re flipping off a few hundred people while standing onstage in a neon yellow bikini.”

So I got fourth place. Which isn’t too bad.

As I flew back to California, back to being a mild mannered Librarian in a quaint bay area town, I smiled to myself. I was happy to leave this wild alter ego in foreign lands, but knew that I would look back at that contest (especially when my boobies decide to fly south for the winter) as the moment I finally excepted myself as a sexy woman.

Nov 3

Warning: If you are either one of my Grandmas or do not want to taint the pristine image I have created for the past 25 years, perhaps you should not read this post. Otherwise, sit back and enjoy the tale of THE most insane night of my life thus far.

As wonderful as an All Inclusive can be, there comes a time when things start to drag. True, this probably wouldn’t be the case if I were a Newly Wed… I’ve decided that All Inclusive were made for people who only want to eat, drink, sun, and have sex. When you are not on a Honeymoon, you have a few extra hours in the day that need to be filled. Since Heather and I didn’t want to make our friendship more complicated, we filled the designated sex hours by reading, napping, and watching movies. By the last day- we were stir crazy. I needed to get out of this island of pleasure or I was going to melt into a giant blob of booze and food.

Did we decide to visit ancient Mayan ruins? No. Go peruse some Mexican Craft market? No. Maybe watch a cultural showcase of dancing and food. Nope.

We opted for the party bus.

When Heather handed me the brochure, the first thing I noticed were the throngs of co-eds smashed together red-faced and sweaty. I could almost smell the mixture of Hawaiian tropic and Tequila eminate from the little piece of shiny paper. Emblazoned across the pre-sex pictures of gyrating 20-somethings were a list of rules to “obey” when aboard this Bus. Each of the rules were dumb and I could imagine the voice of the guy from the Girls Gone Wild commercials screaming them at me with cheesy steel drum music in the background,

“WOOOOOO! Rule Number 4, Bro… WRITE YOUR HOTEL NAME ON YOUR UNDERWEAR SO YOU CAN GET HOME LATER!!!!! WOOOOO!”

I took a sip of my early afternoon cheap champagne, looked at Heather and said, “Let’s do it.”

Later that night, Heather and I waited patiently in the hotel lobby for the bus to arrive. I was pleasantly buzzed and reclined a little bit into the soft cushions of the lobby couches. Then, screeching into view a white van with darkened windows rolled up. “Is that it?” I wondered aloud… then to answer my question the passenger window rolled down releasing a wave of thumping music and two very inebriated ladies waving and pointing at us,

“YOUR WITH USSSS!!!!! WOOOOOOO!!!” THUMP THUMP THUMP THUMP

“I think that might be it.” Heather said. Like two timid child we sat on the couch, confused and a little scared until the driver sauntered into the lobby. He looked us up and down then said, ”Party Bus?” we nodded, “Well come on!” We followed him to the van, the side door was now open, and spewing a train of drunk 20 somethings. “Where’s the bathroom…” one guy slurred and wandered into the hotel lobby. The two girls from before immediately started gyrating on me and proclaimed to be from Saint Louis and already drunk. Though I had never felt more sober in my life, I couldn’t contain my glee because I was finally surrounded by people my own age, who were (surprise- surprise) friendly.

Once we entered the van, Heather and I learned of the three distinct groups that would be or companions for the remainder of the night. There were the aforementioned drunk Saint Louis girls- all three were clad in stripper heels so high they cause my own calves to ache a little when looking at them. A bunch of red faced British dudes recently released from the British Army… they were sarcastic and not refined- very “Oi! Oi!” if you get what I mean… and some meek dudes from a boring part of the United States. The whole ride consisted of the Saint Louis girls yelling at the British Guys and every one calling us “Califoooooornia!!” Upon asking my name I first said, Nnekay which was met with blank looks and blinking eyes… then I resolved to Kay- which later somehow became Kate, and by the end of the night I was “Katie” no matter how many times I kept repeating “Kay”.

The first club consisted of this: booze, confetti, whistles, go go dancers,  and frat guys. One of which decided to tell a funny little joke to heather, “Wow, your friend really got a nice tan while on vacation!” After she rolled her eyes- I asked him what he said- just to prove to both of us how much of a dumb-ass he really was- he repeated this little funny of his to me. After this exchange we decided to face in the other direction. A whistle was blown and the party bus members were instructed to leave the club and make our way to the next… in a drunken parade of stumbles.

The next club was equipped with a corny reggae band and screens flashing giant pot leaves. POT LEAF-POT LEAF-POT LEAF- RED-YELLOW-GREEN-POT LEAF-POT LEAF-POT LEAF!!

ACK!

Then they decided to blow steam in our faces just to make the experience more relaxing. By this point I was beyond tipsy- and sipping on a giant long tube filled withsome sort of red frozen drink. An ass shaking contest was announced… looking at my (non-black) competition- I hoped on the stage and began to shake my rump- which to my own surprise- was pretty good. There was no prize- but for a minute I did feel… drunkenly sexy.

The whistle blew and our booze parade was off to the last and final club- where I was about to feel a lot more than just drunkenly sexy…